Aka why I'm only popping up random and rarely comment!

and there is my  explanation:

It is because I'm always tired!
I have to stand up at 9:00 am! Thats not very early... but still, I'm always tired and exhausted!
Anyway let me try to explain:

The week has sevend days.

On four evenings of the week I'm away working or having scouts.
this means I come home around 9:00-10:00 pm (21:00-22:00)
On working days I don't get enough coffee (one cup in the morning is, by far, not enough!)

On the weekend I'm either doing scouts work (camp, etc.) or I'm at ~Saimiris place.
Lately we don't stay up late (except for the last time but it's because she has "Zelda - Skyward sword" and it has to be played) and stand up around 10:00 am.
On weekends I drink more coffee but rarely draw since most of the time we play video games (like... Sengoku Basara X'D)
It still seems like I don't get enough sleep even if I don't understand why (nine hours is more than enough)

The only evening I'm home is Thursday and this is when I try to accomplish something but mostly I'm just tired and lazy. I don't really check messages or start to comment on other peoples work but read fanfiction or online comics. I look at fanart or tumblr!
I don't have to do much for it and don't  have to think. It's kinda relaxing.

Additional to my general tiredness I had and have a lot of emotional stress lately.
Quite often I feel sad or angry. As soon as it gets better with my mood, so I can sleep better again, it will be blown away and I feel like crying again.
It's not helping that I have a stronger tendency to cry when I'm tired, which I'm like all the time, at the moment.

But I was always good at distracting myself which I do a lot.

My point is: Please don't wonder if I pop up from time to time and then am away for a couple of days. It's just that I'm too tired and I don't want to write you half-assed comments.

On another note: I looked through my "Self-drawn-Comics"-Folder and the wish to draw comic pages again rose.

Oh yes. I'm on it. Noone is forgotten (I hope) and soon I'll be back! (I hope)

It's just... the general tiredness still keeps me away from this lovely hobby.  Also I don't want to get involved too much when I don't have the energy to draw. So I'll keep it still low with any projects.

Anyway, see ya all real soon with a badass-picture (I really hope I don't fuck it up xD) I'm currently drawing because it helps me to relieve frustration.

yours truly

konfuse :>

PS. I don't need any encouragement or something I'm quite fine I just want to let you know why I'm currently still not really back. It quite annoys me because I miss it.


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