konfuse

... it happened again.

Really I wonder why I always try to come back for good and then just leave again for two months?
What is wrong with me?
I don't get it.

Maybe because I'm tired after work? Yeah maybe... on the other side I wasn't much active when I didn't had a job, was I?

What is this deviantart-tiredness?
Anyone else has it? (does not seem so if I look at all those awesome deviations xD)

Art-wise I'm not doing much. Mostly sketches I won't ever show (because they are crappy like that). Sometimes I doodle on doodle or die  

anyway I just wanted to say I'm still alive
Just not that active (read: almost none) on deviantart. And whenever I think about it, there is this guilt. :/
Well I hope you are all fine.

Tell me how are you doing? Tell me what happend to you the last two months?

and I didn't write a journal or anything.
I'm sorry. I know you heard that quite often from me already but I'll try to be more active again.
Though I won't do a lot of art jams or anything.
Sadly enought what I produce art-wise is nothing but sketches and maybe some Art cards.

So I have not much to show you but maybe will do another sketch-dump if I find enough drawings.

Anyway what is new in my life?

The world didn't collapse! Nice
Thus I had a chance to celebrate my 27th birthday.
Now being 27 I still have no job but I'm doing an internship. It is a media-agency-counseling. I never really saw myself there but I'll take this as a great opportunity. The thing I learn and what it might show me I'll do for the rest of my life.
I can also use some of the things I learned in my studys. xD It is really fascinating.

I'm still playing "The dark eye" having a lot of fun.
While I still love Sengoku Basara, my newest fandom is "Magi - The labyrinth of magic" if you're intrested in Mangas, go read it. Very intresting, thrilling, a lot of likable characters and awesome drawings.
Maybe you'll see fanart. XD;

Beside this I'm all in for a new start here on dA. I did consider to shut this account down and restart completely new (for sometimes you just want to leave everything behind and restart. An easy task in the internet). But instead I'm going to clean up my gallery and my journals.
I also deleted all of my inbox. Now I don't have 1500 deviations to look through but I can concentrate on your upcoming deviations. I'm sorry if I missed some of your awesome work this way but at least I'll comment on future works. But I might also unfollow a few people.
What I'll do is read your latest journals. I won't comment on all but I'll read them xD;

All right... I guess I forgot a lot of things I wanted to add...

I hope you guys are doing all right and maybe you're not angry at me for being absent all this time and not saying anything.

See ya around.

(somehow I'm not able to copy anything... goddamn apple computer! ...so I'll add that stuff later)

... for me.
I got a job. This is also kind of bad news because I have to move. Only 100km away but still...
I'm leaving family and friends behind, moving to a completely new city.
Anyway it is a great chance for I'll work in e-learning buisness. Maybe even groundbreaking in Germany.
And I'll earn good money. A lot of a starter. HOLY SHIT. FOR DOING TUTORIALS! WAH!

I'm excited. I'm nervous. I'm happy. I'm sad.
A lot of complicated feelings.

I got the news an hour ago, looking for a flat now. I will start in August it seems. I just don't know what is going on... this is all a lot and very much and... woah.
I hope I can really do what they want me to do. I need to re-learn some computer languages. So don't except a lot of me this month, AGAIN.

Anyway I'll try to wipe up a character for :iconfreyard-dryden:s contest tonight... and tomorrow (idea is there hopefully it works out) but all I do is drawing dwarfs lately. I improve at that but at the same time I get the feeling I forget how to draw human-sized people. xD;

I should upload some sketches. xD; I'm also sorry that I'm NOT COMMENTING. I think I'll delete everything and start over... again. fuck.
But really... wow... wowowow... okay I'll do the meme later on but post again the people who will get choosen three deviations and stuff...

Maybe I should have said it earlier... because... yeah...
I didn't get the job. Problems with the money. The project is cancelled and thus I didn't get the job. I'm still looking for one. So I do have to time do artsy stuff.
But I'm a lazy ass.

I'm sorry. I'll still try to do my best. Because I should. Anyway time to do some drawing and to earn some money and to write some applications (I have 3 NO - 1 is still running
But the people seem to like my application so maybe I do have a chance.)

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shadicemaple.deviantart.com/ar… This is really cute It's not easy to draw chibis. I kind of like the sun, she looks funny. xD I also like how you used diffrent shades of blue to make clear that a sky is not in one blue but slowly becomes darker.
As said before, the Chibi is really cute and I like her feather headdress.

shadicemaple.deviantart.com/ar… For a first use of a base, very good work You missed a few pixel on her shirt but your did an amazing job otherwise. Nice cellshading. The background is also nice and goes well with the music theme. XD

shadicemaple.deviantart.com/ar… this also is really cute. I like nurse characters and she looks intresting. Maybe you should try to use her more, since she is random? XD

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I'm sorry that I delay this but I really don't have the brain right now... oh god, I can't believe this is happening...
What I want to do is traveling every weekend home. I want to meet my friends because they deserve it... and I'll earn enough to pay the travel. And I'll try to save up money so I can finally get my car license and buy a car.
It's only 100km that is a travel of a hour.
I can do this! So can my friends. And at least I won't need their money anymore xD
Guess what else? I'll have the money to buy commissions. Never could do that. Soon I can!

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yeah I just thought I'll inform you XD; I'm sorry for being a sorry excuse of an artist and online friend.

Take care!

konfuse

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Hey ho!

I want to excuse my lack of activity. Somehow I got sidedrawn by a couple of things. Tumblr, KaKAO (german version of ACEO/ATC), roleplay, Comic-Salon...
and a lot of OC-feels lately.

I love my characters to bits and whenever I see them suffer my heart breaks.
To make it more clear what I mean, I offered one of my characters, (Marie) to a comic project by Yeocalypso and the comic was released last month.  

Then there is the RPG where I play Bora (my female dwarf). But this would be too much to explain.

Yeah... feelings, lots of OC feelings. X'D

Beside that, I have started to sketch up a new outfit for Rotkäppchen. I don't know if I'll manage to draw the pages I'm planning (full colour asdfjkl) but I'll upload the story nontheless.

I need to draw more in general.

And I haven't forgot about other projects and contests I want to participate in.

But beside that I think it is a good point to do a feature! Since I was featured by ShadiceMaple some time ago: shadicemaple.deviantart.com/jo…
So, for the first 10 people, commenting on this journal I'll go in their gallery, and pick three of my favorite art-pieces by them.
(We all know the problem to choose just one, two or three favorite pieces)

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shadicemaple.deviantart.com/ar… This is really cute It's not easy to draw chibis. I kind of like the sun, she looks funny. xD I also like how you used diffrent shades of blue to make clear that a sky is not in one blue but slowly becomes darker.
As said before, the Chibi is really cute and I like her feather headdress.

shadicemaple.deviantart.com/ar… For a first use of a base, very good work You missed a few pixel on her shirt but your did an amazing job otherwise. Nice cellshading. The background is also nice and goes well with the music theme. XD

shadicemaple.deviantart.com/ar… this also is really cute. I like nurse characters and she looks intresting. Maybe you should try to use her more, since she is random? XD

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ma people.

1. I'm out of the 1DF but that is all right because this means I can tell you all to go, vote! VOTE! VOTE FOR THE SECOND FIGHT!
This means not today but at the end of next week... maybe next Monday or Tuesday. We'll see.
(I addes some description to my fight fav.me/d4zs4av if you're intrested)

Voting was so hard, oh my god. I stared up to 5 minutes at the pictures before I could decide which I gave my vote! Really!
It won't be any easier next time. :I

2. I'll upload a bunch of Sketches which don't show much but are nothing but a bunch of skechtes... the usual, ideas, concepts, stickmen... a little bit of doodle or die... you're warned

3. Kiriban is still up! We're at 49,948 Pageviews

4. Now something completely diffrent. Am I the only one who feels awkward when drawing fanart of other people characters? I know i love it when people draw my characters. It means they like them enough to put effort into it... but when I draw it I feel like a creep and that I'm not worth their attention.
I feel like a bother and I don't want to bother anyone.
Am I the only one or...?

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